Be Good to Yourself

            For many people, this is a difficult thing to do. There are layers of reasons as to why we struggle with this, but the root cause always seems to be the same: we just don’t care enough about ourselves to care for ourselves. Let’s take a moment to explore why we need to be good to ourselves and how to do it.

            Simply put, negativity is like a poison and the only antidote is positivity. If you’re too hard on yourself, you’re feeding into the negative energy instead of the potential positive energy inside of you. This creates a snowball effect, a perpetual circle of physical and psychological pain.

            Our minds and bodies are opposite sides of the same coin. If you have emotional pain or stress, chances are your body does too (and vice versa). Lack of confidence, for example, is often the source of bad posture. In turn, bad posture causes all sorts of pain and strain throughout the body, especially in the back, neck and shoulders. When we finally decide to change our behavior, we have this chain reaction of difficulties to overcome. Fortunately, this cycle works in the other direction as well. Once you start improving one area, a positive reaction is brought about in all areas. If you make an effort to have better posture, your body will hurt less and the release of physical stress will improve your confidence. If you’re too hard on yourself, you’ve probably been taking advantage of the negative side of this cycle.

So how do we turn this wheel in the other direction so that it works for us? We start by understanding how difficult it will be. A lifetime of negative thinking and behavior cannot be turned around in a short period of time. We may struggle for years to reach our goals. Of course, I am not saying this to be discouraging, but to be realistic. The more objective we are about our goals and ourselves, the more room we have to forgive the mistakes we make along the way. These mistakes are the key to success; the sooner we accept this the easier our journey will be.

Mistakes are not the end of the world. If you’re on a diet and you give into a slice of pizza, the answer is NOT to eat more junk food. That voice in your head that says “Hey, you’ve already fallen off the wagon, might as well eat what you feel like” is the negative spinning wheel. It is the part of you that says you don’t matter, that doesn’t care about your well-being and wants to hold you back because it doesn’t want to move. If you eat a slice of pizza, be happy that you didn’t eat the whole pie. Be happy that you went as long as you did without pizza. Be happy because that slice showed you that you may have set your standards too high. Use every setback as a means to re-evaluate what good you are doing instead of an excuse to revert to bad behavior. Making a mistake means that you have more to learn, not that you’re an idiot. Often, the setbacks we have show us that we are trying too hard and need to take a different approach to achieve our goals.

The greatest catalyst for positive change is forgiveness. Criticizing ourselves and making things “off limits,” reinforces our bad habits. It highlights the lie that says we’re not good enough and that we do not have the power to conquer our shortcomings. Forgiveness allows us to accept that the things we are not good at are things we can improve. Positive reinforcing the good we do will encourage good decisions in the future. Rewarding yourself for good behavior (even a simple pat on the back or giving yourself an imaginary high five) will inspire you to do more good things. Even when doing wrong by yourself or putting yourself last has become almost a default setting, you can change. If you keep working hard, being good to yourself can become second nature. 

You're too Hard on Yourself

            I believe that this is the case for most people who struggle to be happy and do right by themselves. We set too high standards and can’t help but criticize ourselves when we can’t reach those ideals. Of course, in setting goals we are trying to be better, which is a good thing, but we go about it all wrong. Instead of embracing who we are and bettering ourselves to make ourselves happier, we try to better ourselves because we think we’re not good enough the way we are. This is the lie that stands in the way of happiness.

            So how do we conquer our problems? Well, that word “problem” is one of our biggest enemies. This is a word that needs to be erased from the dictionary when we think about ourselves. Be honest, do you use the word “problem” a lot when you think about your habits? How many of us have a “weight problem,” “shopping problem” or “cleaning problem?” Another trouble word is “fix.” We are all trying to “fix” ourselves instead of healing, improving and honoring ourselves. By using words like these, we are whispering to ourselves “you are not good enough and your struggles are more than you can overcome.”

            It may sound silly, but simply removing words like “problem” and “fix” from your mentality is a huge step in the right direction. This seems like such a small thing, but it is rather hard if you’ve been doing it for most of your life. So just be easy on yourself. Now, let’s try putting this idea into context.

 Like many people, I struggle with weight loss. Currently, I’m about 100 lbs over a healthy weight for someone my height and age. For years, I have tried dieting with little success. This is because I’ve been thinking of my weight as a problem and have used it as a way to judge myself. It has been a barrier that keeps other people and good things out, while keeping the negative in. All because somewhere along the way, I’ve incorrectly learned that I am not deserving of happiness.

I thought that if I could lose weight, it would somehow “fix” me and make me more worthy. This idea is crazy, even though so many of us believe it. With that in mind, I would obsess about how much weight I needed to lose and how great it would be to lose it in this ridiculous, impossibly short period of time. So I’d start a really unhealthy diet of extremely low amount of calories each day (like 1000-1200).

For a short period of time, I’d always keep up the diet, and feel good about reaching the goals I had set and seeing the numbers go down on the scale. But I had set myself up for failure. Not only is it difficult for my body to survive on this diet, but it is impossible for me to maintain because I haven’t built up enough self-discipline. The other day, I found myself about to repeat this same process when I suddenly realized the insanity of what I’ve been doing.

So how can I better this situation? Thankfully, having worked through many other struggles and changing other aspects of my life, I have learned that the best strategy is to simply be good to myself. Instead of setting unrealistic goals, I can recognize my own patterns and replace my bad habits with opportunities for success. I’ll be talking about just how I’m doing this in a future post.

If you’re too hard on yourself, chances are, my own struggles are a familiar echo. I encourage you to stop reading this for a moment to enjoy how it feels to know you are not struggling alone. Most of us feel trapped inside ourselves. We only have our own eyes to see the world from and it is easy to feel like you are all alone staring out your window. This blog is proof that you are not alone. It is proof that you care enough about yourself to look for help and find others that you can support and can support you. You’ve already made a step in the right direction. You might be too hard on yourself, but at least you’ve done one thing to be good to yourself. This is the truth that is the path to happiness.

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You’re standing at the start of that path.

A Little Introduction

Hi! If you don't know me, my name is Jacqueline. I'm 26 years-old. I attend college at SUNY New Paltz and split my life between somewhere around there and in Western Massachusetts where I was born. I am on a lifelong journey in bettering myself and my life.

The reason for this blog is to share my journey and have others share their journey with me. I've walked rather far on the road already and have things to share. There is still so far to go and there is so much I would love to hear about and learn from those farther along than I. My hope is to spread encouragement and happiness to one another by sharing our successes and struggles.

As for the title of this blog, when you're feeling down, whether it's because you feel guilty or frustrated, remember this: "Chances are, you're being too hard on yourself. Be good to yourself instead."